Once you realize that understanding what has been, to you, inconceivable and incomprehensible requires a change…

— possibly a deep and transfigurative change…

— that the solution to the problem is “in here” in one’s way of understanding, as well as “out there” in the material to be understood…

— and once you take as your goal the self-transfiguration required to understand…

— and accept as part of the effort the frequently excruciating labor involved in making these transfigurations…

— it is probably fair to admit that the effort is not really philosophy, anymore, as most philosophers conceive it.

This work is something else — something outside the rules of the game of philosophy as played by professional philosophers in the arena of professional philosophy.

Here, outside mind and beyond language that purports to represent the mind, players of the anarchic philosophical game seem not to know how to move about.

I suppose the decent thing is to admit finally that this is a religious effort, though now it will face rejection from the religious side…